I had to find a way to remember the random Tuesday - the day during the week, the month, the year - that didn't have a special event like a birthday or graduation or the birth of a baby. Because Big Sister is four years old now and Baby Sister's first birthday is around the corner. And already I sound like a broken record asking where the time has gone. Because I now am straddled to a family schedule for four people taking us places in four different directions. And even thou

I wished and I hoped and I dreamed huge dreams that felt real and prayed big prayers that became songs - lyrics that I eventually knew by heart and sang as loud as I could driving east down Olympic - the sunset warming my back, pushing me home. Because my heart saw two little girls long before the morning sickness and cravings and frequent doctor's visits and the random belly rubs by total strangers at the bank, the post office, the grocery store. But I know that I was just t